Update: June 30, 2015

Posted on: June 30th, 2015 by Christy Jansma

Dear Church,

We know that many of you are waiting for a report after our oncology appointment in Calgary. You are so good at holding us up in prayer. Yesterday was an exhausting day, both physically and emotionally. The oncologist presented us with good news and bad news. We are grateful that none of the classic symptoms of lung cancer have yet appeared.

Good news:
— Cancer has not migrated to the brain, a common path for lung cancer
— The primary tumour on the lung has reduced slightly
— Bone and thigh tumours seem to be contained

Bad news:
— The molecular tests were negative, not qualifying Connie for targeted therapy
— There is evidence in the liver that the disease is progressing
— Chemotherapy appears to be the only treatment option, the effect of adding months of life

How are we doing? We are heartbroken. We drove home with tears of grief filling our eyes. We are disappointed and deeply saddened. The future seems bleak and foreboding. We cannot imagine a future without each other. While we understood the seriousness of stage four cancer when it was diagnosed in April, now we are facing the terminal reality of the condition. We have so many plans and dreams for the years ahead. This is not the next chapter we would have written for our lives. And so we struggle. We struggle with the fairness of this sentence. We struggle with the question, “What does God want us to do?” We wonder, “How do we number our days?” We struggle to remain positive.

Thank you for your amazing support through this journey. I can’t imagine this journey without our faith community. How blessed we are to look back on our 39 years together without regrets. We have so many joy-filled memories! How blessed we are by our kids and our extended family. Please pray for us, that we will finish this journey with grace. Pray that we will be able to marginalize our disappointment and truly celebrate the wedding next Saturday. Pray that we will have the ability to process this with our grandchildren at their level of understanding.

“Remember the former things, those of long ago; I am God, and there is no other. I am God, and there is none like me. I make known the end from the beginning, from ancient times, what is still to come. I say, ‘My purpose will stand, and I will do all that I please’.” (Isaiah 46:9-10)

Choosing to trust in the loving sovereignty of God,
Ian and Connie

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